i finally remembered the word that described the theme that was rampant in the anime samurai champloo.
anachronism, chronological misplacement of objects. samurai champloo’s producer blended hip hop culture and punk subculture against a medieval japan backdrop. so you’ll see katana wielding samurais in hakama, wearing modern, armani style sunglasses.
the clash makes the anime damn wierd, but damn cool.
to be faster, to be quicker to react by that split second, to move myself that one more millimetre further.
push out, push out, push out.
so close, and that all made the difference.
it’s going to replay non-stop in my mind tonight, till flashbacks of my mistakes on court start to invade my dreams.
hope the rest of us will do so too.
もう少しだけなのに、もっともっと速く、もっともっと上手になりたい。
誰にも止められなく。
オレたちの夢が叶うまで、戦い続ける。
was actually pretty excited when i got the first 10 episodes of kuroshitsuji from liu.
i mean, look at this;
it looked damn cool, at least to me at that time haha.
until i realised while watching that they’re recycling the gothic butler bound to master theme which is quite prevalent in manga and novels (think artemis fowl and count cain), nothing new. worse still, most of the so called ‘cases’ ciel and sebastien take on are quite shameless rip offs of old english mystery tales like ‘jack the ripper’ and even ‘sherlock holmes – the hound of the baskervilles’. and kuroshitsuji’s attempts at humour were rather lame, some jokes wont make you laugh, they’re the kind that will lower your body temperature by a few degrees.
and i think kuroshitsuji was trying to appeal to BL fangirls by giving the sebastien x ciel relationship very heavy undertones. to certain extent, it worked XD. sebastien was probably created for masochists and ciel for sadists. and over the course of the anime, you’ll always see ciel tied or chained to something and sebastien flying here and there and rushing to his rescue. and then carrying him back to the mansion in himedakko, after which he will utter his signature ironic phrase ‘私は悪魔でも、執事ですから。’ it gets abit abit tiring after awhile.
and despite all my complaints, i’m still downloading the next 4 episodes, just because i know that there will be more opportunities for slash later on.
being a BL fan has made me irrational.
since now i know, should i be feeling relieved? that i have a solid reason to push you completely out of my thoughts?
i guess there wasnt anything to lose anyway, after all, i seem to recall looking at your back more often than your face.
i recognize the symptoms now. except that i’m treating them like symptoms of some sort of disease.
but now i know, never never to chase the bumper of a car long gone.
sidetracking, eyeshield 21 is spastic at times, but it’s a really really good sport anime.
maybe i should consider forcing the whole fb team to watch it.
eyeshield 21 is a pretty good anime to watch. makes you want to play american football.
wonder if singapore actually has a women’s team.
somehow the more i think about it, the cuter the idea sound, really. i actually smile when i think about it.
one whole team, trooping off to play hockey. with a whole load of misgivings and doubts, but still going to play.
but whether or not we play for them, our true allegiance shouldnt be forgotten.
finally all the shit imploded.
angry? yes, but somehow it was also accompanied with a sense of deja vu. and a sense of tiredness.
alot was said, some which i thought was pretty fair and acceptable, and some which i bristled at due to blatant disregard for our cca. i thought about it quite hard on the way home, being as subjective as i can, and yea, i reached the conclusion that those arguments only make perfect sense if we were some pariah group or B grade cca that is a few notches below everyone else. or a team that have to work our training schedule around others’ and only owe our existence to a more established cca, which we are stuck on (i am honestly apologetic to that established cca, really really no sarcasm intended. because i know you all dont like the fact that we seem to have leeched on you guys. but i love my team more, so i’ll have to put us above you all). so actually the treatment makes perfect sense, because that’s basically what we are.
i wont say it’s unfair, because it’s not. it’s just the way things are. we’re new, even our organisation’s not very big nor powerful, so the school has already done us a huge big humongous jurassic colossal gargantuan favour in allowing our existence. and even gave us funds! when they could have used the money to build like, golden taps in the boarding school (sarcasm intended, really sorry, i couldnt resist that barb).
so i’ll push, for the things we believe in. orthodox methods dont work? there are always unorthodox methods to try.
and now talking about us; with so much shit floating around, shouldnt we be more fired up to do better? or be mentally stronger and more passionate about what we’re doing? shouldnt we have more determination to overcome odds and succeed? i see that in some (not enough), i dont see that in some. i still feel that’s where we fall short, that’s why we cant complain about the shit too much, because we’re not good yet, not trying hard enough yet, not pushing ourselves hard enough yet. getting there, but not there yet.
yet. i’m an optimist. we will get there, just a matter of whether we will get there on time.
or be too late.
that’s why we’re frustrated to tears. we can organise team talks, but we cant make you become more passionate. we can organise more pt sessions, but we cant make you mentally strong. there are things like self motivation and determination which you develop yourself.
i shouldnt be reminding you again, but recall your dream, our dream. all of you have a share in this dream, so all of you have equal share of responsibility. all of you. how much do you want to win? just how much? remember, when you win, you’re right, when you lose, you’re wrong and you lose a few more times, you get chopped off the list of ccas in school. it’s just the way things work, not really a question of fair or unfair.
so how we perform this year at nationals is really just a measurement of how much we want top 4. it’s there, we just have to take it!
i want to get into top 4.
do you?
school will reopen tomorrow.
pack desk, pack bags.
盧廣仲 一百種生活MV
we saw this guy sing live at the taiwan countdown 2008-2009, the recording on youtube here, and gosh, he sang live with just his guitar for accompainiment (mind you, he played it at the same time) and didnt go out of tune, not a single note. this guy is amazing. real talents will sound exactly the same as their recordings when they sing live. the only other artiste i know who can do this is gackt haha. plus, he looked really awkward and attention shy on stage between the songs. but when he starts singing, you can see the joy emanating from him haha. this guy obviously loves singing so much that his joy is infectious.
so much that i googled his name when i came back haha.
but really, look at him. he doesnt need to change his glasses, or pull his socks lower, or change his haircut. i think people love him the way he is. and i do, too.
his songs are at most just beat, guitar, and voice.
but what a voice.
i seriously want his album.
“Dont ask, dont tell” day care centres proliferated where overworked, undertrained staff, and two income yuppie parents, ignored the children’s emotional needs – all in the name of equality and to enable women to reclaim their identities.
— abstract from this GP article.
this made me angry and sad at the same time. angry because it insinuates that when men chase after a career, they’re fulfilling their duty, and when women do so, they’re neglecting their children just to reclaim their identities as being of equal ability to men, which isnt that important. sad because the abstract’s most probably right.
can you imagine, studying hard, getting a degree, getting a good job, working hard at it, getting promoted, setting milestones, gaining respect in the sphere of your career. then after giving birth (and going through all the pain in the process), work after that suddenly becauses something akin to sin because it replaces the time you could otherwise spend with the child? guiltridden, you stop work, and all the hard work before that goes to the drain. then 20 years later, you go back to work, by the time, your economic value has plummeted.
and some guys can complain to me that national service in singapore is gender discrimination, when in certain countries it is lawful to gang rape a woman for wrongdoing.
so now, we have dreams of what we want to do in the future, and we take steps and pains to work towards them. isnt it rather bleak to think that if we conform to society and gender roles and essentially ‘do the right thing’, whatever our dreams may be, they will always morph into the children, the laundry, the kitchen, the husband’s dinner.
my point may be missing out on things like the joys of having children or duty to the country or whatever cliches the government may be doling out now haha.
but really, that’s why declining birth rate and marriage rate is pretty much inevitable, and stuff like child benefits dont exactly address the root cause of the problem, which goes much deeper than that.
just realised that i did the physics holiday assignment from the wrong physics book.
kanasai.
thought i finished physics, when i essentially havent started. and it’ll probably take 6-7 hours of full concentration to finish.
it’s okay, i still can smile, i think haha.
i saw signs of you everywhere in taiwan. really everywhere. i wonder how many times your face appeared in my mind, how many times your name passed my lips.
feel so wretched.
it’s 1:57am, and i still feel vestiges of motion sickness from the plane back home from taiwan.
basically, i;
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