physically tired after IHG training today. it wasn’t that demanding, think it’s some sort of collective fatigue from playing floorball for 3 straight days. realised that i have nothing else to do except to have a quick lunch at subway and return to my room and watch videos. guess being alone all the time is really eating into me nowadays.
picked up mirage of blaze from youtube, just to relive the notorious scene in which naoe tumbles takaya by brute force. in retrospect, if naoe really wanted to get away he could just have repelled him with spiritual power, but well.. also remembered why i didn’t fall in love with this pairing, it was because naoe was much too emotional; ‘why does it have to be me? if it wasn’t me, i wouldn’t have felt such shame in loving you’ ‘even without your memories, you continue to triumph over me’*naoe starts tearing*, which makes you want to back off from a character like that. chill man, takaya doesn’t even remember or know what you’re talking about, and is just listening to you emo in confusion. then naoe goes ‘i don’t care anymore!‘ and pushes takaya back down, while going あなたを抱き殺してやる!which literally means i’m going to kill you in my embrace. like huh? PMS? kind of takes him off the pedestal of super seme.
on the hand, there is sufficient evidence to infer from takaya’s flashbacks that the traumatic experience that blocks his recovery of his memories is some sort of male gang bang. oh, torment, anger, fear. this anime is one negative emotional roller coaster ride, in which everyone is depressed. don’t get me wrong, i derive voyeuristic and sadistic pleasure from seeing characters suffer, but i find overkill tasteless. like smile, guys! you’re japanese, be happy!
still, after so many complaints i’m kind of still watching haha. naoe held his hand with takaya this time and it’s not likely that naoe will go down on takaya again, but it’s always good to hope for the good things.