呟き

sigh.

mixed feelings about the outcome of SUNIG this year.
looking back, i can think of ways i could have gotten us a draw at least, and the champion trophy. then again, everyone probably could think of stuff they could have done to get us to win. problem is that i don’t know why i did not. why i conceded goals by the same person 4 times, and what to do to prevent future re-occurrences.

because honestly, i’m not satisfied with just being a decent keeper. silly as it seems i can’t let go of the dream to one day stand at the top of the field with the few who could get there. someone who actually makes a difference, who is powerful enough to influence the flow of the game, someone who would be mentioned in a coach’s warning as a real threat to our opponents. that is what i want to give to my team, because ultimately that is what they want and need.

become faster. become fiercer. become stronger. become smarter on court. how? how long would it take to get there? and how is it that something already so far away could get further out of reach?