i think i still shudder everytime i look in the mirror. probably because i’ve never had a full body breakout before. plus sores look worse on paler skin. and i cant stop wiggling around and banging myself on the back of my chair. the itch is terrible. but i’ve been told once i scratch and break the sores it’s THE END. irreversible change.
glumness.
truth is the fact tha i know super keeper will be playing in IVP next year makes me more glum actually. if she was any other normal hardworking keeper i wouldn’t mind because compeition is good and both of us will improve by both vying to outdo each other and helping each other at the same time. but when someone comes along and just crush you, well. seems like dreams for national team might be at infinity when dreams for IVP are already pretty far. even if i fight tooth and claw i will probably just.. end up in the team and on the bench. which sucks. which really sucks! i don’t want to be on the bench! i want to play and win! in fact i want to train harder and sweat and bleed and run faster and move faster and become better! but KANASAI i’m currently stuck at home with fucking chicken pox and a warning from doctor to not exercise!
ohmygosh i wonder which random passerby passed it to me i would probably wring that idiot’s neck.
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